I have a friend in hospice who is likely to pass soon. She is a wonderful friend and has gone through a lot in the last few years. We often spoke of fears and difficulties with each other. I went to visit her the other day, for perhaps the final time. She sat upright and spoke softly. Her eyes were distant, but she was fully present. I fought tears as I sat with her, as she ask for healing touch to ease her pain. I held her hands and looked at her and ask, "are you afraid?" She looked at me and replied, " Sometimes I feel a deep calm." As our conversation progressed and I cried, she remained calm and consoled me as I spoke about having difficulties letting go of her flesh, of her in the here and now where we could touch and talk. She listened so peacefully. When I went to go she held my hands tighter. I said I didn't want to overstay. She didn't say anything, so I sat and we spoke quietly for some time. Then she gave me the greatest gift, she told me to keep doing what I was doing, with my kids, my family and my yoga students. She told me I had given her so much and yet I felt she was the one who had given -- her love, her money, her time, her spirit, her life. When I finally prepared to go I told her, "this is not good-bye, it's just see you in another place." She smiled a warm and loving smile. She hugged me and kissed me. Then I left. For a brief moment I was sad because I knew I would probably not see her again in this life. After a moment, though, I began to feel wonderful. My friend and I left nothing left unsaid. No loose ends, no regrets between us, no anger, no pain. It was love I felt. Although I knew I would miss her body I also know death would free her from her pain, allow her to grow and be the bigger spirit she is. I knew she would be okay as she crossed over to that other space. I knew her strength was enough, her love enough. I'll miss her, but I know she is always with me in my heart. I know I'll see her again.
Happy Fall one and all. What a great time of year to be active outdoors! Golf, tennis, walking, yoga, no matter what you like, get outside and move your body. Keeping your body active helps release stress and keep a clearer mind. This is also a great time of year to begin or renew a meditation practice. By challenging the mind and the body we stay healthier and happier. Hope to see you at yoga class soon.
Hi, I'm Andrea. This is my yoga blog.